“Finding New Happiness) Chapter 10: Distracted
“So? How did Alice and my future son–in–law get along?” my mom chirped, her voice brimming with excitement.
“What was the atmosphere like? Tell me, tell me!”
The servant stood by, not daring to breathe.
“Mom!” I gHappy out through gritted teeth.
“What? You don’t even recognize your own daughter’s voice?”
She feigned a bad connection.“Why is the signal so terrible?? Hello? Can you hear me?” My jaw twitched.“Keep playing dumb, and I’ll go pull up every blooming flower in the garden.”
“Don’t!”
“Then spill it quickly, what’s the deal with Alex?”
“What do you mean, what’s the deal? Aren’t
I was fuming.
what’s the deal? Aren’t you satisfied?”
“It’s not that I’m dissatisfied…that kind of satisfaction, it’s just how we both feel about the situation. I might think he looks good, comes from a decent background, and is a nice guy. And he probably sees me the same way, so we connect…”
“So what’s the problem? You like him, he likes you. It’s perfect.”
“I…never mind. And stop blabbing about my business!”
“I didn’t…” I couldn’t take her rambling anymore. After handing the phone back to the servant, I lost my appetite entirely. I slumped into my bedroom, just as Daisy called. I told her about the evening with Alex. She laughed uncontrollably.
“So, Alex didn’t fall for you because of the blind date?”
want to marry
hìm.” Falling for me? My heart pounded.“Daisy, I don’t “Why? You weren’t against him. Plus, it’s great that he likes you! Or is it Bryce you can’t get over?” “Daisy, do I seem that pathetic to you?”
“Then what’s the problem?”
I was feeling a bit frazzled. I couldn’t help but think back to those years I spent trailing behind Bryce – years of humiliation, self–deprecation, and a complete lack of self–respect. Alex’s affection now felt like an overwhelming burden. I feared he’d become a second me, and I couldn’t give him the love he deserved. It contradicted my initial expectations. I wanted & fresh start, a blank slate, a total stranger. I didn’t owe him anything, and he didn’t owe me anything. No psychological baggage. But now, I’m feeling a bit lost.
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