Chapter 53
Chapter 53
Damian
I wasn’t enjoying this bullshit of a ceremony at CrystalMoon’s which I agreed for Liliana’s sake in the first place because that old witch’s words worked.
Liliana has been quite a lot ever since she became the Luna of the BloodClaw pack. It’s inevitable because she is my wife but still, I wouldn’t want her to feel it as a punishment.
Thus, I decided to, for the first time, accept her offer and attend an event she had told me to. However, it all seemed fine despite the pissy wine and mediocre delicacies they kept when I was with her.
My chest tickled strangely when I saw her get angry on my behalf. I have been a jerk to her the whole time except when we are in bed and yet she still hangs on to her little theory that my rumours don’t describe who I am.
It’s annoying, but somehow, I don’t feel repulsed. Rather, I dwell and delve when she insists I am a good guy, which is honestly the biggest lie anyone can ever come up with.
But then again, when she stares at me earnestly with that pure desperation in her eyes, as if she would unmask all those layers I have put up and embedded in my body over the years, I shiver.
I shiver and my mind goes south and I think, maybe, I can be a good guy just for her. I can let her be satisfied and believe in whatever she wants to, by acting just like she wants and then I discard the fucking thought with the same speed it dares zooms its way into my mind.
Because the ‘good‘ word is an insult for Damian Edwards and yet I keep insulting myself over some girl who has clamoured her way into my life. Mates or not. It is something which has gone way beyond that.
And this is why I am fretting over the way she, stuffed my blazer into my arms, snapping coldly at me. I don’t know what came over her suddenly.
I was talking to Logan and we were having a pleasant chat but then, she suddenly stormed and threw my blazer at me. I was taken aback, and confused. I still am..
I tried to go after her but then Alpha Carter came over. Soon, there was a crowd around me. People kept coming and tried holding conversations, all of which was seriously a test of my patience.
If goddess thoughts of them as less people to test me out, she even sent the host, also the Luna of the Crystal Moon. The blonde woman. She offered me a drink, again that pissy wine and god knows how I held myself back from throwing it at her face.
Firstly because all of them were irritating the hell out of me and secondly, that wine was an absolute monstrosity. I had had enough up to that point and was about to excuse myself but then Logan stopped me.
The mountain pack had arrived and I couldn’t miss out on seeing them. I stayed for a short chat and scanned the room to see where she was but I couldn’t even see a trace of her shadow even after I scoured the whole room.
That was my cue to really leave now. I excused myself after having a short pleasant chat and started picking up on her scent. The faint vanilla scent grew stronger when I arrived near the third balcony, tucked to the left of the room.
Her scent lingered in the air but when I got closer to the door’s handle, another scent was thrown in, a masculine stench. I opened the door with such force that the handle was about to detach itself from its hinges and curl up in my hand.
What is she doing alone with a man on the balcony!?
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I feel a burst of adrenaline course through my body as I stride up to her, only it is bloated with red angry patches.
I am seething.
Before I got closer to her, the man whose stench coated her scent murmured something to her and vanished. He disappeared right in front of my eyes like a cloud of smoke.
“Who was he and what were you doing with him, alone, on the balcony?” I force the word, ‘alone‘ and she falters as if she is trying to explain the situation but then something flickers in her eyes, no her whole face and she hardens.
“What are you so angry about? You sound as if you are accusing me of something”
“Did you do something, I would need to accuse you of?” My tone becomes dark and I step closer to her as if we were not already standing face–to–face.
“No, I didn’t but I can’t say the same about someone else”
I quirk up an eyebrow at her words and my anger inflates, “Someone else? I will take it that, ‘someone else‘ is me. So, how about you elaborate on that, Liliana”
She flares up her nostrils as if she is about to chew me out or give me a lecture of shame but instead, her enthusiasm simmers down and she purses her lip.
“As if that would make any change” She grumbles and for god’s sake, that just fuels my anger tenfold.
“Liliana, you don’t withdraw after lighting a matchstick to fire up petrol. You act upon it and you can back down all you want but I won’t. Who was the man you were talking to?” I hiss and it’s back again.
Her flames of anger were back again and the muscular structure holding her pale slender neck became taut.
“Why, Damian? Are you jealous? Why are you all antsy to see me interact with another man when you don’t even consider me a wife?”
Have I been on fire before? Maybe many times but have I ever been a blazing inferno? Maybe for the first time because for fuck’s sake what is she even saying?
“That little mouth of yours seriously needs to be fucked, Liliana because for goddess’s sake, what the fuck are you talking about? I don’t consider you my wife? Didn’t I tell you, you are fucking mine?” A growl erupted from my throat, scratching it
all over.
Who put that question in her head? Was it that bastard who vanished like a coward when I arrived? Or was it someone else!?
Her lips quivered and her face wobbled as if she was on the verge of tears before she parted her lips, “Then why else would you call me a good deal? You only treat our marriage as a deal so don’t act jealous in front of me.
It’s a torturous contradiction and I hate it”
Realization dawned upon me the moment I heard her meek voice. Did she hear me talking to Logan? I held her arm and lifted her chin, “Did you hear me talking to Logan Wright?” I sighed when she didn’t answer.
“It was my first time meeting him. I didn’t want to answer him in a way which would bring more danger to you” It’s true that I was conflicted when he asked about my marriage.
It’s still something, I am trying to figure out as well. However, it’s also true that I don’t see Liliana as a deal and I answered that
way because it suits the image of Damian Edwards to answer that way.
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There are many complications related to this question inside my head. Everyone knows she is mine but I still fight the urge to show that she is mine to everyone.
Whenever I see her slender nape, I want to sink my teeth in and mark her. It’s a constant and an instant urge which takes over me whole and devours me but I hold it in.
At the same time, I don’t want to give her something of me which I won’t be able to recover later.
Mates are distrustful and even though Liliana is someone who absolutely fucking terrorizes my mind 24/7 and stays there, I can’t admit she is someone special, to myself but to the world, I am dying to do so.
And then comes the fear, what if my enemies sense that? There won’t just be the old hag and her people coming after her but a lot more and I in no way want her to feel endangered and become my weakness in any way.
BloodClaw can’t be without a Luna again.
‘And what about you, Dami? Will you be alright without her?‘
‘Not now, Zade!‘
I block him out when I hear her speaking again.
“Answering in what way would have brought danger to me?” She looked up at me so innocently that it made my heart waver and I couldn’t answer immediately.
“A way which would make others think you are special to me”
She hesitates and her teeth sink into her lips before she meets my eyes again, “Then, am I special to you?”
Fuck.
There it goes. She is gazing at me so expectantly that it is making me go crazy. My chest tightens up and I can’t bring myself to answer. I…I am afraid she is special to me.
And what I am more afraid of is that she looks infinitely enticing right now that instead of answering her, all I want to do is kiss her but for the first time, I yield.
“Isn’t that why I lied to Alpha Logan? Because you know, I am a person who is made up of danger. No enemies could scare me” I rasp, feeling my throat burn as I realize, it’s not the first time.
I have been changing myself since she clamoured into my life and it’s insane.
ever
“Oh” She breathes and her cheeks turn pink. Under the starlit night and the sparkling lights behind me, all I see is her.
I lift my hand and place it on her cheek. It’s warm. She leans against it and my breathing quickens. I step closer and my lips inch closer to hers.
“It’s your turn. Why did you throw my blazer at me angrily? Why were you upset?” If they were pink before, they turn
crimson now.
She blushes deeper and shakes her head a little, embarrassed. “I didn’t throw it at you” Her voice is almost inaudible now. “Why were you upset?” I ask and she looks up, then goes on hiding her gold beneath her eyelashes.
“I wasn’t angry”
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“You are lying and we both know it.” My voice is a soothing rumble but I can’t hold it for longer. “Don’t test my patience”
“I didn’t like it. I didn’t like it when you said you got a good deal out of this marriage and a Luna for your pack. It was terrible. We…we have been trying to make this marriage work but then I get to know it’s only me…it felt horrible and then you were accepting a drink from Hazel.
How could you?” She almost ends up crying now.
I think I have cleared up the first one but from whom did I accept the drink now?
“Who are you talking about?” I have become impatient now and the man from before has been driving me crazy.
“Hazel! That vixen. I didn’t want to come here in the first place. I hate to be here. Austin was my ex–mate and he cheated on me with Hazel! No one took my side because my father revealed that I was not pure blood.
Can you believe, that the people whom you have spent your whole life with suddenly turn their backs on you and start thinking of you as a curse?
I am glad my father wasn’t here tonight. I am trying not to even think about him. He is the worst of them all, even worse than those pair of cheaters. He..He–
